hey guys, sorry ive not been answering all your messages as much as I would like to, ive just been super busy recently, im really sorry

i’ll be able to get back to you quicker and more easily if you message me here

and this is my personal blog, if you feel like getting to know me a little better:’)

much love to you all
stay strong

-ella <3

0 notes
Anonymous asked: I have been cutting for a year and a half and it's been getting worse and spreading over my body and getting deeper, I hate my self I feel worthless I just need help

you are not worthless. you are loved. you are so. beautiful.
please remember this.

do things that make you happy. listen to upbeat music. surround yourself with people who love you. try not to spend much time alone. I don’t know what youre into, but play an instrument, draw, read. find something to distract yourself from these destructive feelings.

-ella 

0 notes
Anonymous asked: Are you ever going to post stuff like you used to? With the relatable posts and stuff?

yes, just I haven’t been getting any submissions lately

0 notes
Homeless and Depressed.

My name is Eden. I suffer from chronic depression and severe anxiety.

I’m homeless & staying on the couch of someone who is cruel to me. It is triggering my depression & suicidal thoughts. I have a part-time job, and I am working toward getting my own place, but I’m worried I’ll start self-harming again if I stay here long. The feelings of hopelessness take stronger and stronger hold of me every day. 

I made a fundraising website where I will write a song or paint a picture of anything for anyone who donates. If you’re interested in checking it out and/or helping by sharing the link, the site is www.gofundme.com/26swgg and my personal email is nonogiraffe@yahoo.com

This is not a scam and I would be willing to write to or even video chat with anyone doubting. I would love to see charity still exists. It wouldn’t even entirely be charity: it would be paying a girl in need for an adorable drawing or writing a song.

Please help. If several people gave five dollars each, the price of a cup of coffee or gallon of gas, it could get me into a home so much faster, and I would could stop feeling this way. If 200 people donated $5 I could reach my goal. Please share the link and help me move on with my life, instead of daily imagining ending it.

+edenjoy

4 notes
Anonymous asked: I want to stop. I want to be happy, but this happiness doesn't count. I want to tell a close friend, but I'm afraid. I feel like a coward every time I fake a smile. A close guy friend [who I wish was more] is getting suspicious of my cuts and lies, because I can't even look him in the eyes. I tell them I fell down the stairs, I say I tripped. There always excuses, never the truth. I need help. Please help me.

open up to him. having someone to talk to will help you more than you think. please try talking to him, or anyone else, it will do you good

-ella

0 notes
Anonymous asked: Nothing feels as relaxing as a cold piece of metal against my skin. I like how it feels, and it relaxes my mind. I don't really see why it's bad, so I was wondering if there was something wrong with me. Is my mind broken in thinking this is okay? Am I broken to the point I might as well die? I don't know if things are going to get better: so many people online say that's true, but I've been looking and I don't believe so. If cutting is one of the things that makes it all more bearable, why stop?

pain releases endorphins in the brain, and endorphins are what make us feel good… its like adrenaline

cutting is impossible to control though. your cuts could get infected, you could contract a disease, such as hepatitis, you could cut too deep and require stitches, and you will be scarred for life

you don’t want that. and thinking the way you do isn’t healthy. your mind isn’t broken, youre just going through a tough time, and finding it difficult to see clearly. but it will pass. I promise

-ella<3

1 note
Anonymous asked: I've been a week clean. I don't know how much longer I can keep this up. I threw away most of my razors but saved one. I'm trying to resist but it's so hard.

you can do it!! you can!! listen to happy music, try not to spend too much time alone, go out with friends, take pleasure in the small things in life

I know you can do this

-ella<3

0 notes
Anonymous asked: i stopped cutting like a year ago and i thought i would never do it again, until yesterday my boyfriend told me im nothing and i dont deserve him

someone who says something like that to you isn’t worth your time darling. you are worth so much more than he could ever be

-ella<3

1 note
Anonymous asked: I've been cutting since i was 14. I stopped for a while last year but now I've started again. My flat mate/best friend knows but she doesn't get it. She thinks I'm just overreacting to things and being stupid. I've started doing it on my legs so people won't notice. I feel like I can't talk to anyone about it. When I don't cut I feel like I don't exist but when I do I feel so alone.

have you considered going to a therapist, or talking to someone about it? I think you need to…

you can hide your cuts from other people, but you cant hide from yourself

-ella<3

1 note
Anonymous asked: 4 months. I was clean for 4 months..until yesterday I just was an emotional wreck and I am then I hear kids talking bout cutters as emo people and I always get mad cuz I am Farr from emo. And I don't know what to do? Have any suggestions??? Please

you’ve made it 4 months - lets make it another 4, starting today!

those people don’t know what theyre talking about. theyre just ignorant. don’t listen to them, youre better than them

-ella<3

0 notes