Anonymous asked: I can't stay strong longer, but I know there's a future for me, I just can't wait to get over this bullshit. Although I know it's only starting. I hate myself. I hate everything. I hate that I hate everything. I just want to die. Am I supposed to swallow all the pills at the same time or one by one? My heart is so black and cold and I cant to anything to change it, I know I shouldnt feel this way at such a young young age but I cant help it.
I’m gonna tell you something I said in a conversation with someone off anon a few days ago. This doesn’t just go for you, it goes for anyone and everyone who’s struggling. When I first started therapy sessions, I hated it. I couldn’t see the point and a lot of the time I felt worse for it. But what I’ve learnt, something that no therapist ever says, is that if you want to be happy, you have to do it yourself. You have to get up one day and decide that you’re not gonna feel this way anymore. Therapy will teach you to do that, once you understand that fact. The rest of the world, assumes that therapy is the answer to all you’re problems. It’s not. You are. You have to ignore what makes you unhappy and concentrate on what does. Get on with what you have to do, but don’t let it get you down. You have to fix yourself, no one else can. Once you truly understand this, you will begin to get better.